"The Perfect Sleep"

I saw the wreckage from that night somewhere in hindsight
there were no stars in the sky or in his vacant eyes
I picked up pieces off the street that were left unseen
on such a dark night, "God" must have been fast asleep

We placed a cross on the fence to be shared with friends
we'll be asking questions and making amends
like anyone will hear our words, only the free birds
"everything happens for a reason" sounds absurd

So close to home on a late night, early in the new year
were there flashes behind those eyes, or time enough to fear?

We placed a cross on the fence where a lifetime ends
baring a name we all know given by closer friends
from under a frozen winter sky, so gray and so wide
"it was just his time" will be the lie to ease their minds

Forever dressed in such class from a life less tired
I don't want to accept that your time has expired
but maybe you are finally sleeping the perfect sleep
"in a much better place" is all that I believe

Will we look the same emerging from the flames?
the ashes of our bodies gathered and thrown away
will we meet again, will I see you as a friend?
with the proof of our lives scattered and blown away

Please take my hand, show me what's been planned
or is what we are the end of everything?
please tell me more, that's worth hoping for
does what we see in dreams have some meaning?

"Par Voie de Mer"

I will take enough to last me years
I'm sorry but it's impossible to work here
I'll take sharp enough knives if all goes wrong
to carve my thoughts into what I'm floating on.
You have enough problems, no need to fix mine
I'm sorry to waste so much of your time
you may keep everything of ours
I'll find a muse in the stars.

Maybe it's just that I have grown cold
maybe I've lost sight of all my hands used to hold
let the waves wash over me, I will try my luck at sea
I just wanted to be something ... but it's time
to be moving on, to accept all that's wrong.

If you make it out alive and alone
may the calmest seas keep you afloat
should the current send you drifting
may the sun shine bright to keep you from freezing.
I'll be on my own floating out to sea
out towards the setting sun and smiling
longing to see the stars more clearly
thinking of you when the sharks come to get me.

Maybe it's just that I've become tired
maybe I've lost hope in all that had me inspired
let the ocean embrace me, I will have more luck at sea
you just wanted to help me ... but it's time
to be letting go, to give up all that I own.

"Understanding a Sailor's Grief"

Please stop pulling me down, you have some flaws of your own
feel free to go

I was out with myself again as the day began to fade
darker clouds were rolling in, I felt them raining on my face
I was hoping for a flood, for it to carry me away.
All I heard when I got home were the voices of a siren
I've got this yearning in my heart and a burning in my skin
could we ever start anew or find something to believe in?

Please don't pick me apart, you have bad habits of your own
we have no vows to keep, you're free to leave

I was lost in my thoughts again as the sun began to rise
morning birds were waking up, I heard them taking to the skies
I was thinking of the times and of the places with surprise.
I can't force myself to love, we've been pushing way too far
I've got a burning in my skin and this yearning in my heart
we need to find again, everything that made us at the start

Please don't deny such simple things, you have desires of your own
we have no rings to wear, no lie to swear
please don't flash me those eyes, you're not as clever as you think
we have no promise to hold, you're free to go

"The West Is Dreaming"

Leave what you will and take if you need
you have familiar eyes and a similar taste
we could make this work with anyone
and the east is screaming your name
Take what you will and leave if you need
there's "indifference in my voice and walls around my heart"
this has gone on for far too long
pieces that once fit have been pulled apart

So it's stay or just walk away
I can tell by the way you've been sleeping
that you're afraid of what I've been thinking
Baby, stay or just keep away
I can tell by the way you've been leaving
and we've gone too long without speaking

You've been taking those pills earlier each night
the ones that you say have been helping you sleep
you could be dreaming of anyone
and the west is dreaming of me

There's no more walking on eggshells
cause there's nothing left to hide
we should be letting our guard down
there's no more secrets to find

Oh, if we could change, would we ever feel the same?
So what if we changed, would we ever be the same?
I would be willing to try

So it's stay or just walk away
I can tell by the way you've been sleeping
you're just afraid of what I've been thinking
Baby, stay or just keep away
I can tell by the way I've been drinking
that we've gone too long without speaking

"Echoes in Waves"

I woke up with the sunrise
something I don't normally see
unless I'm falling asleep
some things I will never see
until I'm falling asleep

We spent a year outside
dressing our tired arms
sinking with the sunset
into more somber seas

Belonging to the night
speaking in desperate tongues
trading our hearts at times
for what love cannot provide

This distance only shows us
the decline of reckless lives
with lines divided in white

Crawling through the darkness
without that warmth at my side
something less than cleansing
running throughout my veins

Twilight echoes in waves
found on the warmest days
rising with a new sun
into more cloudy skies

While sleeping with these demons
burning up beneath the trees
freezing slowly on the beach

We were the same as leaves
during a season's change
floating before landing
upon these icy streets

We made a pact in the snow
binding our loving eyes
grasping our fragile hands
onto some fleeting hope

Now if it's only one of us
to make the changes we need
I believe you're far too weak

I left my crutches in the street
buried my weapons in the ground
where they will never be found

Maybe what she said was true
maybe there is more left in me
than I have come to believe

I woke up with the sunrise
something that I see differently
waking in some clarity
without you and I've never seen...
I've never seen these streets so clean

"Seasons for Sleep"

We found escape in the constellations
we found an outlet in the stars
no one will touch us this time
With the storm clouds passing below us
and the moon as our guiding light
nothing can hurt us this time

Leaves fall to keep us together
is this how we'll be remembered?
This is where we are
there's nothing we need to run from

Birds, take me with you, fly me south for the winter
under your wings, help me to forgive her

I found comfort in the changing seasons
held hands with angels in the snow
I'll get by fine on my own
I found an anchor in the darkest nights
made friends with ghosts in the cold
I can be fine on my own

Day breaks and the skies are clearing
is this what we'll find in leaving?
This is where I am
there's nothing that I can run from

Bears, let me join you, let me sleep until spring
under your embrace, let me not feel anything
Birds, take me with you, fly me south for the winter
under your wings, help me to forget her

"Changing the Tide"

The moon's making her presence widely known
I see sorrow in the way she's glowing
the moon's making its presence known tonight
gleaming brighter like a watchful eye

Maybe she knows something's coming
she's already changing the tide
maybe she's telling us something
perhaps she's saying goodbye

One day all orbit will abandon this world
the moon will not always hold our hand in the dark
there will be deserts where ships once sailed
let's hope we're leaving something that makes a mark

The sun's losing his presence in the sky
I see cowardice in how he's shining
the sun's fading, it's slowly losing spark
barely burning like a dying star

Maybe he knows something's changing
he's already doubting himself
maybe he's resting for something
perchance he's bidding farewell

Someday the surface of earth will be changing
the sun will not always have our backs in morning
we will soon evolve where the deaf had failed
let us not be frightened by any words of warning

Oh, please tell me I will live to see this day
when it comes I know I won't be afraid
Oh, please tell me I will live to see the end
when it comes I hope I'll see you again

Life story

When everything is lonely, I can be my own best friend.
I get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversation
with the sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection.
The mask I polish in the evening, by the morning, looks like shit.

Waste

We sit and we sigh
and nothing gets done.
So right, so clued up
we just get old.

The Way I See It #296

By the time executives get married, take on a mortgage, raise kids, cope with the crabgrass, climb the corporate ladder, do their best to manage career pressures, build their net worth and get into their 40s, they've lost touch with what they believe in and care about most deeply.

--Allan Cox
CEO coach and author



Another example as to why we can never give up or stop doing what we love to do.

Two-thousand what??

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I truly cannot believe it's 2009 now.
I keep thinking it's still 2007.
I'm not sure what that says about 2008...

I'm pretty sure (and hope) this year will have many firsts
and many new/amazing memories.

Wow, I'm pretty that's the most optimistic I've ever been in my whole life.


I hope everyone had fun last night and today!